I Wonder…



Every once in awhile I feel compelled to write a song or a piece of music specifically for this blog, so I wrote and recorded this yesterday (Sunday 4/2/17).  Since I am an anonymous blogger, I know this music will never see the light of day outside of this particular forum.  Still, if it is part of the journey and it relates, then I hope it will help others on their own journey.  Click the play button above to hear it.  Thank you for taking a moment to walk with me on my journey!

I Wonder

Verse 1
Standing on the edge of light
I see so much and still I am so blind
And Everyday I fight the fight
To try and leave the war behind

If I jump I wonder if I’ll fly
If I crash I wonder if I’ll die
If I stay I wonder if you’ll know
If I leave I wonder if you’ll go

Verse 2
I’m falling now from such a lofty height
Engaged inside my soul’s greatest fight
Plunging down so far beneath
The outcome I may never see

If I jump I wonder if I’ll fly
If I crash I wonder if I’ll die
If I stay I wonder if you’ll know
If I leave I wonder if you’ll go

Search for meaning in the sky
Finding truth not welcoming
Discovering that I’ve lived a lie
Has caused me to  start my wondering

Verse 3
The pain i’m in right now is not a jail
The fire that’s refining isn’t hell
I know everything could be so much worse
And I know this loneliness is not a curse

If I jump I wonder if I’ll fly
If I crash I wonder if I’ll die
If I stay I wonder if you’ll know
If I leave I wonder if you’ll go… with me


33 thoughts on “I Wonder…

  1. And your not famous whyyyyy????? This is gorgeous. You have such a beautiful tone and perfect pitch. Really beautiful song lyrics. I’d buy your album!

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    1. Thank you Bethany, that is very kind of you! It is a little bit of a quandary. If I were famous (which I’m not) I couldn’t really say anything about that on this blog, being that it is and shall remain anonymous. Let’s just say that my job is more behind the people who may or may not be famous. I personally have never been destined for fame, but I love being involved with those that are!

      The songs and music I am doing for the blog are intended to stay here for the people who follow this blog, but if something is really really good, it might sneak out of here and into someone else’s repertoire… maybe. We’ll see. That would cause a little indirect linkage into who I am, but if that happens, so be it.

      Thank you for being so engaged!


      1. You are able to do what you love it seems which is wonderful. Then to have a blog and be able to write in anonymity so that you can express yourself is another blessing. Here is hoping you keep writing and keep producing music.

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  2. Hi I like music, usually classical and traditional, I like the early country western. I wrote a couple simple songs. have been singing for my age minus 15, so it has been a long time. I really like you lyric. I have listened to your recording because my husband is watching tv. I’ll listen to it tomorrow. Well done with your song. Miriam

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  4. I enjoyed this song and the depth you show in the lyrics is followed out in your voice and the accompanying music. This is the sort of song a young person could grab onto and help themselves to express their “angst.” Smiles, Robin 💐 🐦

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      1. You seem young to me! My grown children are 37, 35 and 31. 🙂
        I prefer no angst as I get older. 🙂 It is sometimes what causes those who need to go through problems, gives the “motivation” to write books or songs about it. 🙂

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